playing favorites...

I swear I wouldn't do this. But, I'm failing.

I read an article a while back, where the author said that she has favorites of her kids and it changes with time. I hope so, for the kids' sake. I read the article and I secretly thought "no, I wouldn't do that." But, I'm doing it, sadly.

Before Jared was born, I couldn't imagine loving another child. I loved Alex soooo much. So much so that Eric thought I loved Alex more than I loved him, which was probably true at the time. And I couldn't imagine having another kid that would make Alex having to share my love and my attention. That was partly why I didn't want another child for the longest time. (Partly, yes, let's not mention the other part right now on this sappy part.)

Now we have Jared. A child that is soooooo cute and adorable, and funny and happy all the time that it makes you just want to hug him and kiss him, all the time. And now he's my favorite. I hate using the word, but I have come to realize, that it's true. I try my best to include Alex. I try my best to make sure everything is fair. But deep down, I know. My little giggling blond child has my heart, not a doubt. (As for the blond part, that's the part I'm hoping would change eventually!)

So now what??? According to the article, the favorites will change over time. I hope so.